Mixed Up

Is it always going to be this way? Do I really want it to change? I know people think that it is best this way, but what do I want? Should things stay the same, or go back to the way they were ever so long ago? Wow, it's almost hard to believe that it wasn't always like this. I had almost forgotten about that time... it seems too long ago to be true. Am I better off now? There are too many positives and negatives to know for sure - one could never make a clear judgement of the situation. Does this mean I should just go with my gut feeling? Listen to my heart type of thing? Honestly I wonder if I have the best intentions for myself in mind.