Impact of Words

You may see yourself one way, but the world's perspective is rather different. You can't go about changing that in one night, but something you say, whether intentional or a slip of tongue, can cause drastic changes. Today somebody told me something that I hadn't expected. I never would have seen them in that light, and I wish I had never known this because it may change things for the worse. It hasn't really affected how I see this person on the whole, but it made me more sensitive to a certain things while in their presence. I'm sure they didn't want it to change anything, but they decided to say it and now will have to live with the consequences. After what they told me about themselves, I was tempted to reveal a little about myself. But then I sat there and thought about it for a while and realized it really wasn't how I wanted them to perceive me. Sometimes I hate the image I convey, but other times I am so greatful for it because I wouldn't want anyone to worry about me.

It hurts

If someone could figure out why girls will randomly cry uncontrollably, they would make a lot of money. Personally I'm not a crier, but I can't explain why a tear will fall every once in a while. What I don't understand is why one might have fallen tonight rather than last week when I was pretty depressed. That's what one gets for crashing the best thing they have in this world. I say best thing because no other object has ever given me as much freedom and independence. I can't believe I did that. It's so not me! Responsible people don't cause thousands of dollars of damage. Even still reliving that particular moment brings me back to my gloomy thoughts from last week. I want to just forget, but that has never been my forte. FU*K! F*CK!
Just to let you know, dyeing your hair doesn't change you or what you did... nothing can prevent you from having to deal with your demons. Not that I thought that it would, I just wondered about fresh starts. Those don't exist.