It hurts

If someone could figure out why girls will randomly cry uncontrollably, they would make a lot of money. Personally I'm not a crier, but I can't explain why a tear will fall every once in a while. What I don't understand is why one might have fallen tonight rather than last week when I was pretty depressed. That's what one gets for crashing the best thing they have in this world. I say best thing because no other object has ever given me as much freedom and independence. I can't believe I did that. It's so not me! Responsible people don't cause thousands of dollars of damage. Even still reliving that particular moment brings me back to my gloomy thoughts from last week. I want to just forget, but that has never been my forte. FU*K! F*CK!
Just to let you know, dyeing your hair doesn't change you or what you did... nothing can prevent you from having to deal with your demons. Not that I thought that it would, I just wondered about fresh starts. Those don't exist.